Why am I in ICT (Institute of Chemical Technology, formerly UDCT) today? If you think it is fate, you are wrong. It is about what I wanted to be, and where I chose to be. My JEE results in 2004, that is after my XII, were disappointing. All that was left on my parents’ mind then was that I should take a drop and study in Kota. But deep inside I knew there was a silver lining to the bad result, and I could not find it then. I went along with their decision and landed up in Kota to experience its rigorous life. But it was just a matter of time before I received a telegram from UICT. The world opened up. I packed my bags, even though my parents were still circumspect.
Today, my impulsive decision could not have been any better for me. All of us sometimes in our life face a question — what is the purpose of my life? Why live this life? This happens because we reach a place where we are not so content with the way we live our life. Most people do not realise this state and go on living their lives as usual, some may even die discontented. But this is not how we are to live our life, life is a journey to explore, a journey full of joy and energy abound.
All our lives we may be following someone else’s rules, someone else’s beliefs. Aren’t we defeating the very purpose of our life? Shouldn’t we venture to find ourselves? Shouldn’t we take the risk of becoming ourselves? The search is not far away; all the truths are buried deep inside us. Search for them, look deeper and try to find things that give you joy. It is undoubtedly a difficult task. It takes real courage to change, to accept the changes around and to start doing things that you had inhibitions about. But the solution to all woes is opening up to yourself, believing in your ideals, your mandates, your dreams. Most of us will not take the trouble to do this; we opt for the easy way out. We mask our own identity from our self. In doing so, we give a lot of pain to our soul and no matter what, we end up bearing all that pain. It’s like taking an analgesic and pretending that the cause of pain has been eradicated where as its only the senses that you have made numb. We then live a life of prevarication.
Take up the challenge to leap across your shallow thoughts to the realm of reality. Now we are in a position where we have no choice but to follow the path in front of us. We may slow down by the fear of letting go of the old things that had been a part of us for long. We start dreading the very thing that we are to experience. Go on, take small steps, and ready yourself to make the run. On the way, let not your energy levels attenuate. You may not feel the vigour and joy attached to these activities initially. Allow yourself to experience the reality fully. Let the truth fit into its place. As it does, you feel elated. You enjoy the happiness that follows. You feel balanced. You become what you are here to be. The things that you have left behind no longer trouble your soul. You have now mastered the cause of pain and thus, need no analgesic. Truth, to you, is no longer relative; it is now absolute. This is nirvana.
Moko kahan tu dhoonde re bande
Main to tere paas mein
Na main deval na
Na kabe kailas mein.
—- Sant Kabir